THE DOG STAR OF SUMMER
I was born on this island
In the rains and the flood
My eyes are the blue sky
Salt water's my blood
I was born on this island
Where the sun sets in gold
Where my worries drop off
At the edge of the world
I carry the thing
That she gave to me
The feeling of something
Much bigger than me
I need the distance
The big, rolling sky
The peace that I feel
With the sun in my eyes
The waves and the wind
The birds and the sea
Not a soul on this earth
Comes looking for me
When I was young
And we moved away
The dog star of summer
Shined bright on that day
I looked over my shoulder
To send her my love
She said not to cry
But she saw that I was
I dream of the ocean
Reaching for me
I sink to the bottom
And there, I can breath
My home is the island
But there, I can't stay
She is my mother
She is my grave
When I am old
And in the mountains, I die
They'll carry me back
To lay down by her side
My ashes and bones
Will sink into the sea
And the dog star of summer
Will shine on the beach.
PROOF OF LIGHT
We send to you our deepest love
From the surface of the earth
We who rise like fireflies
Searching in the dark
To cure the sickness of our hearts
We've come to let them open up
But only God knows how it hurts
When the dam becomes the flood
You appear to us as points of light
Dashed across the evening sky
When the thunder shakes beneath our feet
And the sun has turned its back
When fear burns wild inside the blood
And the last lost dream dies in the flood
We offer up our humble hearts
That burn with sacred fire
Uncorrupted light expands
Cast so far, it never ends
We offer up our empty hands
Our unchained spirits, free
Proof of light is all around
It's brightest when the night comes down
Fireflies and shooting stars
Light the noble heart
Each heart on earth was made to break
That is how the light escapes
We find it in no other way
Than searching in the dark.
A CROW FLIES ABOVE ME
I am a traveler
The sun in my eyes
I chase the horizon
I don't keep the time
I left my old town
Dug out from that hole
Couldn't waste my time learning
What I already know
I follow the sun
As it moves to the west
The sky lifts the weight
The earth sunk in my chest
With the mountains, I dream
With the willows, I cry
The river, it bends
The long road, it winds
All of my bad days
I choked them right down
And buried them deep
In the cold, cold ground
I shook off the ghosts
And the old spiderwebs
A crow flies above me
I speak to the dead
All, it is holy
In the desert out here
Though my bones, they are cold
And my wounds have not healed
I watched as my demons
Came crawling out
Turning back into ashes
Lifting up to the clouds
Mother nature will keep me
And make me feel whole
Her sun will shine down
On my wandering soul
My thoughts, like a river
Will all come unstuck
I won't be afraid anymore
Of the flood
I will follow my heart
And find peace, by and by
With no destination
And the sun in my eyes.
APPROACHING THE DESERT
I was a lost soul
Asleep on the dry earth
Approaching the desert
My cold bones beneath
I drank of the poison
Enough to reach heaven
Bound by my own rope
And pulled down beneath
I went underground
To sleep with the flowers
To escape the cold winter
And wait for the spring
Under the dirt
The roots look like branches
With no sun to reach for
And freedom to sink
Inside my tomb
I had visions of angels
The fiery eyes
That a madman can see
I sank in my footprints
In the city of ashes
With the rats in the tunnels
I crawled on my knees
I let go of my soul
When I was asleep
While a thousand hands
Reached to bury me
I let go of my soul
And fell to my knees
With no sun to reach for
And freedom to sink
From under the dirt
I reached for the temple
The angels ascended
The slippery ladder
I return with the flowers
With the storms and the thunder
I surrender my exile
And plead for the sun
Where the hard rain falls
The earth is made fertile
'Neath the cold bones of hell
I reached for the sun.
THE FARAWAY LIGHT WE CAN’T SEE
I sit with my father
Skipping shells in the twilight
When the beach is empty
And the sky is clear
The last oystercatcher
Flies off from the shoreline
The cars on the street
Have all disappeared
The ocean turns silver
When the night comes down
The stars come out
And the wind comes around
We stand on the jetty
In the warm purple twilight
Casting for blackfish
When the world is asleep
My father shines like a faraway star
But this light, he cannot see
Instead, he finds it in the sky
Or as something that was passed down to me
My father's head is in the clouds
He's a traveler just like me
He was wounded in the war
With wounds that most people can't see
We stare too long into the sun
We share the same strange dreams
We can see without looking too far
When the night comes down on the beach
One day, we know, this will all be gone
Like fog rising over the sea
Memories exist, hanging in the air
As invisible things we can see
I used to think there was nothing at all
That remained of us after we died
But now I think that we carry on
As faraway pieces of light
When the storm came, and the night was long
When my sorrow was as big as the sea
A mysterious beacon lit up the night
A faraway light shined on me
When I leave my days behind
I'll exist as a memory
As the purple lightning in the summer sky
And as all of the light we can't see
Where lost souls wander in the night
My light will shine down on the sand
I'll walk with my father in the warm streetlight
The darkness will have no place to land
When the waves pull my body back into the sea
And my bones have turned back to sand
I'll feel myself in the ocean's arms
On the jetty, my father will stand
Life springs up again somewhere
Where my father turns the soil
The warm west wind brings in the spring
The twilight sky is purple
The tourists here will all have gone
The beach, it will be ours again
We'll cast for blackfish when the world is asleep
In the dream that we share with no end
The fog will lift, and the morning star
Will shine on the silvery sea
Me and my father will still exist
As the faraway light we can't see.
THE DRAGON CALLS ME UNDER
I catch the light in the summertime
That cracks and splits the rumbling sky
Rain pours from the rocky cliffs
And rushes with the rivers
The mountainsides are lush and green
Along the streams, the thrushes sing
The west wind brings the low tide in
The willows touch the river
The summer frogs are beckoning
I lift my arms up, as I spin
I'm dizzy like a butterfly
Pulled into the night
All the world, it is asleep
Walking through an ancient dream
In my dreams, I'm growing fins
And pushing up the river
I push against the water, west
My skin is cold, my hands are webbed
The river lets me take a breath
My blood burns hot like fire
My skin, it shines with silver scales
I kick and thrash my mighty tail
The land, it shrinks; the sea, it swells
I wake the water dragon
His body runs for miles and miles
His song is old, his eyes are wild
He finds me diving in my sleep
And I follow him down
Destruction taught me how to swim
The master passing on his dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world
The fisherman have cast their nests
Pushing up the river, west
The moon is waking from her sleep
Lifting her tired eyes
The sky is filled with butterflies
Their white wings lift the heavy night
The spider weaves her silver web
The thunder shakes the night
My ears roar with a maddening sound
The mighty river holds me down
I sink so far down through the mud
I'm breaking through the surface
The dragon finds me in the stream
By the lightning of a fever dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world
I lift my arms up, as I spin
A butterfly caught in the wind
In summer's silver web, I'm caught
The dragon calls me under.
I REMEMBER THE DIAMOND SKY
I went up to the beach at night
To sleep upon the sand
My dreams, they carried me away
I fell down through the sand
I fell like sleeping beauty
To the bottom of the sea
I bit into the apple
The poison pit of melancholy
I slipped into unconscious flow
I could not fight the ocean
The undertow, it was so strong
It dragged me across the bottom
When I was young, I had no fear
I stood upon the dunes
I called the lightning down to me
When the moon was high and full
At night, I dove into the sea
And there, I danced with God
I felt the fear stoke in my blood
As we crashed against the rocks
Looking up from underneath
I watch the breaking waves
I sink just like a heavy stone
And God, he looks away
All the world, it is a dream
And the nighttime sky, she carries me
My mother named me for the night
When the stars are breaking through
I rise up from the ocean floor
Into the light of day
The pink clouds make me dizzy
For so long, I've been away
I walk the wire between dark and light
And sometimes I fall in
I feel the fear stoke in my blood
I face the cold north wind
I stare out at the fishing boats
When the waves are breaking tall
I hear the ocean call to me
Her undertow is strong
The moonlight soaks into the sand
Dissolving every shadow
Lilith blinks her lonely eyes
And sinks down to the bottom
Looking up from underneath
I remember the diamond sky
A thousand souls have come awake
Shining like stars through the night.
THE HOLLOW HALLS OF WILD DREAMS
Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin
And the night is filled with dragons
A solar flare breaks through the clouds
On the earth where souls are searching
There are interstellar cobwebs here
I'm clearing them away
I am on a pilgrimage
To the other side of space
Lonely souls, they come here
To feel weightless again
Thoughts, they can get lost here
Without a place to land
Nothing here can stick to you
There's nothing to want, or to keep
In the tumbling waves, I'm far away
From crazy sorrow's twisted reach
We were born at the edge of time
Where the earth drops into the sea
We were born at the edge of a storm
On the far side of a dream
Violets quiver under my feet
Wisteria vines choke the trees
Life is thick and vibrant here
Like sap, it sticks to me
I am getting closer now
I can feel the other side
The diamond sky, it calls to me
I lift further into the night
A walk with a dragon by my side
Through the hollow halls of wild dreams
Reaching for the edge of light
Where time is a fast-growing tree
Solar flares are breaking through
The river is running wild
Time is looping back again
To touch the other side
Our souls are sparks of ancient light
Flakes from a faraway sun
I brush away the cosmic web
That the guardian spider has spun
The spider, she has many eyes
She spirits me away
She spins the seed of every dream
And calls my soul away
The rivers rise; the flood, it comes
The storm has swallowed up the sun
Time grows thick like the trunk of a tree
The branches break away
My body has turned into dust
I am back among the stars
The hollow sky has come alive
With the light of who we are
The weight is dragging on the earth
But I am up in space
Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin
I'm spirited away.
THE LITTLE PATH
Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin
And the night is filled with dragons
A solar flare breaks through the clouds
On the earth where souls are searching
There are interstellar cobwebs here
I'm clearing them away
I am on a pilgrimage
To the other side of space
Lonely souls, they come here
To feel weightless again
Thoughts, they can get lost here
Without a place to land
Nothing here can stick to you
There's nothing to want, or to keep
In the tumbling waves, I'm far away
From crazy sorrow's twisted reach
We were born at the edge of time
Where the earth drops into the sea
We were born at the edge of a storm
On the far side of a dream
Violets quiver under my feet
Wisteria vines choke the trees
Life is thick and vibrant here
Like sap, it sticks to me
I am getting closer now
I can feel the other side
The diamond sky, it calls to me
I lift further into the night
A walk with a dragon by my side
Through the hollow halls of wild dreams
Reaching for the edge of light
Where time is a fast-growing tree
Solar flares are breaking through
The river is running wild
Time is looping back again
To touch the other side
Our souls are sparks of ancient light
Flakes from a faraway sun
I brush away the cosmic web
That the guardian spider has spun
The spider, she has many eyes
She spirits me away
She spins the seed of every dream
And calls my soul away
The rivers rise; the flood, it comes
The storm has swallowed up the sun
Time grows thick like the trunk of a tree
The branches break away
My body has turned into dust
I am back among the stars
The hollow sky has come alive
With the light of who we are
The weight is dragging on the earth
But I am up in space
Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin
I'm spirited away.
THE HEAVY DAYS OF JUNE
There is magic underneath our feet
And a man inside the moon
Raindrops gather on the leaves
In the heavy days of June
There is something stirring in the night
Out on the empty street
In the ghostly glow of the halogen lights
That makes the crickets sing
The clouds are covering over me
I feel the weight of June
It's time I should be moving on
The staying makes me blue
My bones are made of desert sand
My blood, the raging river
My blue eyes catch the morning light
Before the shadows scatter
The city lights, they baptize me
In their heavenly halogen glow
The outside world has gone to sleep
The summer thunder rolls
On the road, it follows me
Through the country of big sky
Sometimes it rushes over me
It finds me where I hide
I feel it when the night is thin
Orbiting like Saturn's rings
My worries draw the monsters in
And wake the angry sky
But the raindrops carry music
And in June, the water pours
I channel it by dancing
Finding peace inside the storm
Thunder shakes beneath my feet
A force too big to fight
I feel it washing over me
It finds me where I hide
But in the sky, there's music
From the ground, upswells the beat
With the lonely ghosts, I'm dancing
From the weight of June, I'm free.
THE CUCKOO
The cuckoo comes in the late days of June
In the haze of the midsomer heat
The sky is thin like the white moth's wings
Barn swallows fly high on the breeze
She's sleeps in the old weeping willow
And at dawn, she flies straight toward the sun
I watch her fly high with the sun in my eyes
To the world, some magic returns.
OUR HISTORY ENDS IN GREEN
I was with you the night
They came from the sky
When consciousness
Cracked open wide
Saint Francis stood over us
Weaving ribbons of prayer
Our feet left the ground
When they landed here
Some say they are the ancients gods
Who created us from dust
Giants from another time
The lost seeds of heaven and earth
I saw them on the mountain that night
Drawing circles in the sky
The fruit of otherworldly dreams
Falling from the vine
Who knew the world would end in June
When everything's so green
I always imagined snow
And the crazy, howling wind
Every cloud left from the sky
The night they landed here
The earth let out the longest sigh
The night that they appeared
The gods spun time into circles
Spiraling like Saturn's last ring
A seed from the worm-eaten apple
Growing glorious ribbons of green
I thought that the end would feel heavy
But it feels more like shedding a dream
With you, I've got nothing to carry
Our history ends in green
Who knew the thing that kept us here
Was the fear of the height and the fall
The knotted grip of gravity
Coming loose, and sliding off
We'll be on the road before morning
Driving the crooked highway into the sun
We'll nod to the sky, squinting our eyes
We'll watch as the new world is born
The countryside is crumbling
Green shoots breaking through old concrete
With you, I don't mind if I'm falling
Because gravity feels like a dream
When we fall, there'll be nothing to carry
On the road, we are bound for the sun
In the ground, they'll be nothing to bury
The earth and the stars will be one.
THE RIVER MEETS THE SEA
I don't like the rivers here
They always run away
The ocean never lets me go
She's the one who always stays
She doesn't mind when I am sad
When the clouds in my head have turned gray
She wraps me up in her heavenly blue
With the rivers, I vanish away
I have this anchor I drag around
I pulled it from the sea
A girl like me can float away
So I keep it tied around me
Inland, where the rivers begin
The sun breaks through in rays
I sit beneath the sycamore trees
The treetops catch the rain
I let the forest bury me
In kaleidoscopic shades of green
Evening descends like a symphony
With the river, I drift to the sea
I'm the one who always dreams
The one who always pines
The lonely girl from the ocean block
Out on the barrier islands
I have this weight I drag around
I pulled it from the ocean
A girl like me can float away
And sink so fast, I touch bottom
I think of her on starless nights
When the summer sky turns gray
When sheets of rain blow through the trees
And the rivers rush away
I come from where the rivers end
Where everything dies and is born
The ocean never lets me go
She holds me in her arms
Someday I'll return as the river
Traveling back to the sea
Someday I'll put my anchor down
And there'll be nothing left to hold me
I'll disappear into the ocean
And there, I'll be reborn
And here beneath the sycamore tree
The earth and the stars will be one.
ONCE, WE KNEW THE STARS
Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I find the sun
There's something foreign in my heart
And the gardens have overgrown
Every heart, I've heard it said
Is forged from fear and love
Every act carried out on this earth
Comes from only one
I lift my heart out from my chest
And tie it to a tree
I feel the arrows flying by
Landing in the dirt around me
Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I find peace again
My soul dropped out from my wandering feet
And all I can feel is the rain
Once, this place was holy
But the vultures have circled around
Some things can only exist in the dark
But mother, it's pulling me down
I wish I was an albatross
Flying out to sea
Far away from dry land
And the weight of its memories
The rivers here are rising
I steady myself for the flood
A hundred miles out to sea
The storm blocks out the sun
I walk the distance I find in my heart
Miles I've tread in between
I wrap myself up in the stars
And sink to the bottom of the sea
Down here, all things are holy
All things, they speak as one
Saint Sebastian comes to life
The sacred heart, it burns
Once, this place was holy
Once, this place was ours
Once, we knew our forefathers
Once, we knew the stars
I put my heart back in my chest
The silver arrows are flying
All souls are either getting born
Or getting busy dying
Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I know fear from love
You'll know it by the way it grows
Bending itself toward the sun.
A SOUTHBOUND GREYHOUND BUS CHASING THE SUN
At times, I find, there's nothing here to hold me
And gravity won't stick to me at all
To the south, the summer birds are flying
And the coldness of the morning's coming down
I'm so high, there's nothing left to ground me
Up here, alone, at home among the stars
But something on the earth can always pull me
And every time I go, my soul gets lost
And life is just another crooked highway
A southbound Greyhound bus chasing the sun
The morning sky reveals her endless beauty
And the desert sky at night holds every star
And all of us are waiting for the morning
And everyone is chasing just one sun
The river can't go back to where she came from
It's in the letting go that she moves on
I fear I'll disappear into the darkness
And my heart will come apart so far from home
One day I might forget that I'm the river
Surrendering to the ocean, I'll be gone
But life is like a silver singing river
A butterfly, so high, burned by the sun
We can't go back the same way that we came from
There's something even bigger we become
And all of us are waiting for the morning
To feel the sun upon our skin, return
Down the coast, the summer birds are flying
And the southbound Greyhound bus chases the sun.
FOR A MOMENT, I HAVE BEEN
At night, I hear the whippoorwills
And the southbound rolling train
I like it when I float away
On the wind, like a ghost, in the rain
Souls, they come and go out here
I hear them on the wind
In the late days of July, like fog in the sky
When the August crickets sing
And I've given myself over
To the force that moves the river
I've lost the cause to fight it
But I'm happy anyway
It's always in the little things
Like the honeysuckle opening
Like riding on the summer waves
To feel like you are flying
My feet, they slip on cold, gray stone
But I have found the way back home
I am gone when the thunder rolls
I return with the wind at my back
Heaven exists upon the earth
And it's a place that I have been
When the sun comes down to melt the snow
And the daffodils are opening
For a moment, I am not myself
And the world is something more
The sunshine turns the river gold
And I want nothing more
And I've given myself over
To the force that moves the river
I've lost the cause to fight it
But I'm happy anyway
It's always in the little things
The whippoorwill, at night, she sings
There are places where heaven connects with the earth
And for a moment, I have been.
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WAY TO RETURN
Whenever I am lost at sea
I hear your voice, it carries me
You are somewhere in the dark
Where the cities slide down to the sea
I'm floating up to the surface
Where the sun paints the ripples in gold
I'm sinking down to the bottom
What a beautiful way to fall
Above, the seagulls are flying
The sea sings her ancient song
The summer sun is falling
A cold wind blows in from the north
So many treasures, my arms did hold
As I stood at the edge of the world
When I was young, I dreamed of the flood
Of what waited in the dark
I fought back the waves and cursed at the wind
All of my monsters have come from within
I felt the power leave from my hands
Where the darkness became attached
I heard the ocean, a voice in the dark
The crashing waves of the saved and the lost
The water so wide, I could not swim across
The darkness followed me
I feel it when the tide comes in
The Fates have brought me back again
To stand against the cold north wind
With nothing in my hands
They find me when I am alone
When the summer sun is moving on
The voices of the ones who've drowned
The ghosts that follow me
But far away, there is a light
That all lost souls can see
It guides us through the stormy nights
Through lifetimes lost at sea
When I am lost, I hear a voice
The ocean calls to me
If I am brave, and I let go
The darkness cannot find me
I can see the surface
Where the sun paints the ripples in gold
I feel my body rising
What a beautiful way to let go
I'm breaking through the surface
The morning sky fills up my lungs
Above, the seagulls are flying
What a beautiful way to return.
I FELT WHAT SHE SAID IN THE DARK
The stars, they look so far away
From where I stand on earth
I saw one tumble from the sky
When I was a little girl
When I saw it happen
I told no other soul
I walked down through the foggy woods
To look for where it fell
I found it in a clearing
Where the earth had been disturbed
The forest was so quiet
Not a cricket, a frog, or a bird
It shined so dimly as it lay on the earth
But the forest was bathed in its light
I was frozen in a moment, so holy
Crossing paths with a thing, so divine
Not a word was spoken between us
But I felt what she said in the dark
I asked if she had been defeated
From such a great height, she did fall
She said that all souls descending to earth
Have no memory after the fall
One lonely night, we give up our wings
And fall to the earth like a star
The fog sunk and rolled down the valley
Birdsong blew in on the wind
The stars disappeared in the morning light
As if gravity was thinning
To the star, I could not offer my pity
For only she knows why she came
To keep light alive in the darkness
To stand on the earth and be brave
On late August nights, I go to the place
Where I watched the star fall from the sky
By now, she has become someone
But she can't remember why
I wish for her peace on her journey
When she's lost and forgets where she's from
When the fog sinks and rolls down the valley
May some memory of this night return
Sometimes I go to the clearing
When the foggy night blocks out the stars
Not a word was spoken between us
But I felt what she said in the dark.