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THE DOG STAR OF SUMMER

I was born on this island

In the rains and the flood

My eyes are the blue sky

Salt water's my blood

I was born on this island

Where the sun sets in gold

Where my worries drop off

At the edge of the world

I carry the thing

That she gave to me

The feeling of something

Much bigger than me

I need the distance

The big, rolling sky

The peace that I feel

With the sun in my eyes

The waves and the wind

The birds and the sea

Not a soul on this earth

Comes looking for me

When I was young

And we moved away

The dog star of summer

Shined bright on that day

I looked over my shoulder

To send her my love

She said not to cry

But she saw that I was

I dream of the ocean

Reaching for me

I sink to the bottom

And there, I can breath

My home is the island

But there, I can't stay

She is my mother

She is my grave

When I am old

And in the mountains, I die

They'll carry me back

To lay down by her side

My ashes and bones

Will sink into the sea

And the dog star of summer

Will shine on the beach.

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PROOF OF LIGHT

We send to you our deepest love

From the surface of the earth

We who rise like fireflies

Searching in the dark

To cure the sickness of our hearts

We've come to let them open up

But only God knows how it hurts

When the dam becomes the flood

You appear to us as points of light

Dashed across the evening sky

When the thunder shakes beneath our feet

And the sun has turned its back

When fear burns wild inside the blood

And the last lost dream dies in the flood

We offer up our humble hearts

That burn with sacred fire

Uncorrupted light expands

Cast so far, it never ends

We offer up our empty hands

Our unchained spirits, free

Proof of light is all around

It's brightest when the night comes down

Fireflies and shooting stars

Light the noble heart

Each heart on earth was made to break

That is how the light escapes

We find it in no other way

Than searching in the dark.

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A CROW FLIES ABOVE ME

I am a traveler

The sun in my eyes

I chase the horizon

I don't keep the time

I left my old town

Dug out from that hole

Couldn't waste my time learning

What I already know

I follow the sun

As it moves to the west

The sky lifts the weight

The earth sunk in my chest

With the mountains, I dream

With the willows, I cry

The river, it bends

The long road, it winds

All of my bad days

I choked them right down

And buried them deep

In the cold, cold ground

I shook off the ghosts

And the old spiderwebs

A crow flies above me

I speak to the dead

All, it is holy

In the desert out here

Though my bones, they are cold

And my wounds have not healed

I watched as my demons

Came crawling out

Turning back into ashes

Lifting up to the clouds

Mother nature will keep me

And make me feel whole

Her sun will shine down

On my wandering soul

My thoughts, like a river

Will all come unstuck

I won't be afraid anymore

Of the flood

I will follow my heart

And find peace, by and by

With no destination

And the sun in my eyes.

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APPROACHING THE DESERT

I was a lost soul

Asleep on the dry earth

Approaching the desert

My cold bones beneath

I drank of the poison

Enough to reach heaven

Bound by my own rope

And pulled down beneath

I went underground

To sleep with the flowers

To escape the cold winter

And wait for the spring

Under the dirt

The roots look like branches

With no sun to reach for

And freedom to sink

Inside my tomb

I had visions of angels

The fiery eyes

That a madman can see

I sank in my footprints

In the city of ashes

With the rats in the tunnels

I crawled on my knees

I let go of my soul

When I was asleep

While a thousand hands

Reached to bury me

I let go of my soul

And fell to my knees

With no sun to reach for

And freedom to sink

From under the dirt

I reached for the temple

The angels ascended

The slippery ladder

I return with the flowers

With the storms and the thunder

I surrender my exile

And plead for the sun

Where the hard rain falls

The earth is made fertile

'Neath the cold bones of hell

I reached for the sun.

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THE FARAWAY LIGHT WE CAN’T SEE

I sit with my father

Skipping shells in the twilight

When the beach is empty

And the sky is clear

The last oystercatcher

Flies off from the shoreline

The cars on the street

Have all disappeared

The ocean turns silver

When the night comes down

The stars come out

And the wind comes around

We stand on the jetty

In the warm purple twilight

Casting for blackfish

When the world is asleep

My father shines like a faraway star

But this light, he cannot see

Instead, he finds it in the sky

Or as something that was passed down to me

My father's head is in the clouds

He's a traveler just like me

He was wounded in the war

With wounds that most people can't see

We stare too long into the sun

We share the same strange dreams

We can see without looking too far

When the night comes down on the beach

One day, we know, this will all be gone

Like fog rising over the sea

Memories exist, hanging in the air

As invisible things we can see

I used to think there was nothing at all

That remained of us after we died

But now I think that we carry on

As faraway pieces of light

When the storm came, and the night was long

When my sorrow was as big as the sea

A mysterious beacon lit up the night

A faraway light shined on me

When I leave my days behind

I'll exist as a memory

As the purple lightning in the summer sky

And as all of the light we can't see

Where lost souls wander in the night

My light will shine down on the sand

I'll walk with my father in the warm streetlight

The darkness will have no place to land

When the waves pull my body back into the sea

And my bones have turned back to sand

I'll feel myself in the ocean's arms

On the jetty, my father will stand

Life springs up again somewhere

Where my father turns the soil

The warm west wind brings in the spring

The twilight sky is purple

The tourists here will all have gone

The beach, it will be ours again

We'll cast for blackfish when the world is asleep

In the dream that we share with no end

The fog will lift, and the morning star

Will shine on the silvery sea

Me and my father will still exist

As the faraway light we can't see.

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THE DRAGON CALLS ME UNDER

I catch the light in the summertime
That cracks and splits the rumbling sky
Rain pours from the rocky cliffs
And rushes with the rivers

The mountainsides are lush and green
Along the streams, the thrushes sing
The west wind brings the low tide in
The willows touch the river

The summer frogs are beckoning
I lift my arms up, as I spin
I'm dizzy like a butterfly
Pulled into the night

All the world, it is asleep
Walking through an ancient dream
In my dreams, I'm growing fins
And pushing up the river

I push against the water, west
My skin is cold, my hands are webbed
The river lets me take a breath
My blood burns hot like fire

My skin, it shines with silver scales
I kick and thrash my mighty tail
The land, it shrinks; the sea, it swells
I wake the water dragon

His body runs for miles and miles
His song is old, his eyes are wild
He finds me diving in my sleep
And I follow him down

Destruction taught me how to swim
The master passing on his dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world

The fisherman have cast their nests
Pushing up the river, west
The moon is waking from her sleep
Lifting her tired eyes

The sky is filled with butterflies
Their white wings lift the heavy night
The spider weaves her silver web
The thunder shakes the night

My ears roar with a maddening sound
The mighty river holds me down
I sink so far down through the mud
I'm breaking through the surface

The dragon finds me in the stream
By the lightning of a fever dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world

I lift my arms up, as I spin
A butterfly caught in the wind
In summer's silver web, I'm caught
The dragon calls me under.

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I REMEMBER THE DIAMOND SKY

I went up to the beach at night

To sleep upon the sand

My dreams, they carried me away

I fell down through the sand

I fell like sleeping beauty

To the bottom of the sea

I bit into the apple

The poison pit of melancholy

I slipped into unconscious flow

I could not fight the ocean

The undertow, it was so strong

It dragged me across the bottom

When I was young, I had no fear

I stood upon the dunes

I called the lightning down to me

When the moon was high and full

At night, I dove into the sea

And there, I danced with God

I felt the fear stoke in my blood

As we crashed against the rocks

Looking up from underneath

I watch the breaking waves

I sink just like a heavy stone

And God, he looks away

All the world, it is a dream

And the nighttime sky, she carries me

My mother named me for the night

When the stars are breaking through

I rise up from the ocean floor

Into the light of day

The pink clouds make me dizzy

For so long, I've been away

I walk the wire between dark and light

And sometimes I fall in

I feel the fear stoke in my blood

I face the cold north wind

I stare out at the fishing boats

When the waves are breaking tall

I hear the ocean call to me

Her undertow is strong

The moonlight soaks into the sand

Dissolving every shadow

Lilith blinks her lonely eyes

And sinks down to the bottom

Looking up from underneath

I remember the diamond sky

A thousand souls have come awake

Shining like stars through the night.

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THE HOLLOW HALLS OF WILD DREAMS

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin

And the night is filled with dragons

A solar flare breaks through the clouds

On the earth where souls are searching

There are interstellar cobwebs here

I'm clearing them away

I am on a pilgrimage

To the other side of space

Lonely souls, they come here

To feel weightless again

Thoughts, they can get lost here

Without a place to land

Nothing here can stick to you

There's nothing to want, or to keep

In the tumbling waves, I'm far away

From crazy sorrow's twisted reach

We were born at the edge of time

Where the earth drops into the sea

We were born at the edge of a storm

On the far side of a dream

Violets quiver under my feet

Wisteria vines choke the trees

Life is thick and vibrant here

Like sap, it sticks to me

I am getting closer now

I can feel the other side

The diamond sky, it calls to me

I lift further into the night

A walk with a dragon by my side

Through the hollow halls of wild dreams

Reaching for the edge of light

Where time is a fast-growing tree

Solar flares are breaking through

The river is running wild

Time is looping back again

To touch the other side

Our souls are sparks of ancient light

Flakes from a faraway sun

I brush away the cosmic web

That the guardian spider has spun

The spider, she has many eyes

She spirits me away

She spins the seed of every dream

And calls my soul away

The rivers rise; the flood, it comes

The storm has swallowed up the sun

Time grows thick like the trunk of a tree

The branches break away

My body has turned into dust

I am back among the stars

The hollow sky has come alive

With the light of who we are

The weight is dragging on the earth

But I am up in space

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin

I'm spirited away.

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THE LITTLE PATH

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin

And the night is filled with dragons

A solar flare breaks through the clouds

On the earth where souls are searching

There are interstellar cobwebs here

I'm clearing them away

I am on a pilgrimage

To the other side of space

Lonely souls, they come here

To feel weightless again

Thoughts, they can get lost here

Without a place to land

Nothing here can stick to you

There's nothing to want, or to keep

In the tumbling waves, I'm far away

From crazy sorrow's twisted reach

We were born at the edge of time

Where the earth drops into the sea

We were born at the edge of a storm

On the far side of a dream

Violets quiver under my feet

Wisteria vines choke the trees

Life is thick and vibrant here

Like sap, it sticks to me

I am getting closer now

I can feel the other side

The diamond sky, it calls to me

I lift further into the night

A walk with a dragon by my side

Through the hollow halls of wild dreams

Reaching for the edge of light

Where time is a fast-growing tree

Solar flares are breaking through

The river is running wild

Time is looping back again

To touch the other side

Our souls are sparks of ancient light

Flakes from a faraway sun

I brush away the cosmic web

That the guardian spider has spun

The spider, she has many eyes

She spirits me away

She spins the seed of every dream

And calls my soul away

The rivers rise; the flood, it comes

The storm has swallowed up the sun

Time grows thick like the trunk of a tree

The branches break away

My body has turned into dust

I am back among the stars

The hollow sky has come alive

With the light of who we are

The weight is dragging on the earth

But I am up in space

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin

I'm spirited away.

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THE HEAVY DAYS OF JUNE

There is magic underneath our feet
And a man inside the moon
Raindrops gather on the leaves
In the heavy days of June

There is something stirring in the night
Out on the empty street
In the ghostly glow of the halogen lights
That makes the crickets sing

The clouds are covering over me
I feel the weight of June
It's time I should be moving on
The staying makes me blue

My bones are made of desert sand
My blood, the raging river
My blue eyes catch the morning light
Before the shadows scatter

The city lights, they baptize me
In their heavenly halogen glow
The outside world has gone to sleep
The summer thunder rolls

On the road, it follows me
Through the country of big sky
Sometimes it rushes over me
It finds me where I hide

I feel it when the night is thin
Orbiting like Saturn's rings
My worries draw the monsters in
And wake the angry sky

But the raindrops carry music
And in June, the water pours
I channel it by dancing
Finding peace inside the storm

Thunder shakes beneath my feet
A force too big to fight
I feel it washing over me
It finds me where I hide

But in the sky, there's music
From the ground, upswells the beat
With the lonely ghosts, I'm dancing
From the weight of June, I'm free.

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THE CUCKOO

The cuckoo comes in the late days of June

In the haze of the midsomer heat

The sky is thin like the white moth's wings

Barn swallows fly high on the breeze

She's sleeps in the old weeping willow

And at dawn, she flies straight toward the sun

I watch her fly high with the sun in my eyes

To the world, some magic returns.

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OUR HISTORY ENDS IN GREEN

I was with you the night
They came from the sky
When consciousness
Cracked open wide

Saint Francis stood over us
Weaving ribbons of prayer
Our feet left the ground
When they landed here

Some say they are the ancients gods
Who created us from dust
Giants from another time
The lost seeds of heaven and earth

I saw them on the mountain that night
Drawing circles in the sky
The fruit of otherworldly dreams
Falling from the vine

Who knew the world would end in June
When everything's so green
I always imagined snow
And the crazy, howling wind

Every cloud left from the sky
The night they landed here
The earth let out the longest sigh
The night that they appeared

The gods spun time into circles
Spiraling like Saturn's last ring
A seed from the worm-eaten apple
Growing glorious ribbons of green

I thought that the end would feel heavy
But it feels more like shedding a dream
With you, I've got nothing to carry
Our history ends in green

Who knew the thing that kept us here
Was the fear of the height and the fall
The knotted grip of gravity
Coming loose, and sliding off

We'll be on the road before morning
Driving the crooked highway into the sun
We'll nod to the sky, squinting our eyes
We'll watch as the new world is born

The countryside is crumbling
Green shoots breaking through old concrete
With you, I don't mind if I'm falling
Because gravity feels like a dream

When we fall, there'll be nothing to carry
On the road, we are bound for the sun
In the ground, they'll be nothing to bury
The earth and the stars will be one.

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THE RIVER MEETS THE SEA

I don't like the rivers here
They always run away
The ocean never lets me go
She's the one who always stays

She doesn't mind when I am sad
When the clouds in my head have turned gray
She wraps me up in her heavenly blue
With the rivers, I vanish away

I have this anchor I drag around
I pulled it from the sea
A girl like me can float away
So I keep it tied around me

Inland, where the rivers begin
The sun breaks through in rays
I sit beneath the sycamore trees
The treetops catch the rain

I let the forest bury me
In kaleidoscopic shades of green
Evening descends like a symphony
With the river, I drift to the sea

I'm the one who always dreams
The one who always pines
The lonely girl from the ocean block
Out on the barrier islands

I have this weight I drag around
I pulled it from the ocean
A girl like me can float away
And sink so fast, I touch bottom

I think of her on starless nights
When the summer sky turns gray
When sheets of rain blow through the trees
And the rivers rush away

I come from where the rivers end
Where everything dies and is born
The ocean never lets me go
She holds me in her arms

Someday I'll return as the river
Traveling back to the sea
Someday I'll put my anchor down
And there'll be nothing left to hold me

I'll disappear into the ocean
And there, I'll be reborn
And here beneath the sycamore tree
The earth and the stars will be one.

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ONCE, WE KNEW THE STARS

Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I find the sun
There's something foreign in my heart
And the gardens have overgrown

Every heart, I've heard it said
Is forged from fear and love
Every act carried out on this earth
Comes from only one

I lift my heart out from my chest
And tie it to a tree
I feel the arrows flying by
Landing in the dirt around me

Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I find peace again
My soul dropped out from my wandering feet
And all I can feel is the rain

Once, this place was holy
But the vultures have circled around
Some things can only exist in the dark
But mother, it's pulling me down

I wish I was an albatross
Flying out to sea
Far away from dry land
And the weight of its memories

The rivers here are rising
I steady myself for the flood
A hundred miles out to sea
The storm blocks out the sun

I walk the distance I find in my heart
Miles I've tread in between
I wrap myself up in the stars
And sink to the bottom of the sea

Down here, all things are holy
All things, they speak as one
Saint Sebastian comes to life
The sacred heart, it burns

Once, this place was holy
Once, this place was ours
Once, we knew our forefathers
Once, we knew the stars

I put my heart back in my chest
The silver arrows are flying
All souls are either getting born
Or getting busy dying

Tell me mother, when it all unravels
How will I know fear from love
You'll know it by the way it grows
Bending itself toward the sun.

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A SOUTHBOUND GREYHOUND BUS CHASING THE SUN

At times, I find, there's nothing here to hold me
And gravity won't stick to me at all
To the south, the summer birds are flying
And the coldness of the morning's coming down

I'm so high, there's nothing left to ground me
Up here, alone, at home among the stars
But something on the earth can always pull me
And every time I go, my soul gets lost

And life is just another crooked highway
A southbound Greyhound bus chasing the sun
The morning sky reveals her endless beauty
And the desert sky at night holds every star

And all of us are waiting for the morning
And everyone is chasing just one sun
The river can't go back to where she came from
It's in the letting go that she moves on

I fear I'll disappear into the darkness
And my heart will come apart so far from home
One day I might forget that I'm the river
Surrendering to the ocean, I'll be gone

But life is like a silver singing river
A butterfly, so high, burned by the sun
We can't go back the same way that we came from
There's something even bigger we become

And all of us are waiting for the morning
To feel the sun upon our skin, return
Down the coast, the summer birds are flying
And the southbound Greyhound bus chases the sun.

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FOR A MOMENT, I HAVE BEEN

At night, I hear the whippoorwills
And the southbound rolling train
I like it when I float away
On the wind, like a ghost, in the rain

Souls, they come and go out here
I hear them on the wind
In the late days of July, like fog in the sky
When the August crickets sing

And I've given myself over
To the force that moves the river
I've lost the cause to fight it
But I'm happy anyway

It's always in the little things
Like the honeysuckle opening
Like riding on the summer waves
To feel like you are flying

My feet, they slip on cold, gray stone
But I have found the way back home
I am gone when the thunder rolls
I return with the wind at my back

Heaven exists upon the earth
And it's a place that I have been
When the sun comes down to melt the snow
And the daffodils are opening

For a moment, I am not myself
And the world is something more
The sunshine turns the river gold
And I want nothing more

And I've given myself over
To the force that moves the river
I've lost the cause to fight it
But I'm happy anyway

It's always in the little things
The whippoorwill, at night, she sings
There are places where heaven connects with the earth
And for a moment, I have been.

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WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WAY TO RETURN

Whenever I am lost at sea
I hear your voice, it carries me
You are somewhere in the dark
Where the cities slide down to the sea

I'm floating up to the surface
Where the sun paints the ripples in gold
I'm sinking down to the bottom
What a beautiful way to fall

Above, the seagulls are flying
The sea sings her ancient song
The summer sun is falling
A cold wind blows in from the north

So many treasures, my arms did hold
As I stood at the edge of the world
When I was young, I dreamed of the flood
Of what waited in the dark

I fought back the waves and cursed at the wind
All of my monsters have come from within
I felt the power leave from my hands
Where the darkness became attached

I heard the ocean, a voice in the dark
The crashing waves of the saved and the lost
The water so wide, I could not swim across
The darkness followed me

I feel it when the tide comes in
The Fates have brought me back again
To stand against the cold north wind
With nothing in my hands

They find me when I am alone
When the summer sun is moving on
The voices of the ones who've drowned
The ghosts that follow me

But far away, there is a light
That all lost souls can see
It guides us through the stormy nights
Through lifetimes lost at sea

When I am lost, I hear a voice
The ocean calls to me
If I am brave, and I let go
The darkness cannot find me

I can see the surface
Where the sun paints the ripples in gold
I feel my body rising
What a beautiful way to let go

I'm breaking through the surface
The morning sky fills up my lungs
Above, the seagulls are flying
What a beautiful way to return.

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I FELT WHAT SHE SAID IN THE DARK

The stars, they look so far away
From where I stand on earth
I saw one tumble from the sky
When I was a little girl

When I saw it happen
I told no other soul
I walked down through the foggy woods
To look for where it fell

I found it in a clearing
Where the earth had been disturbed
The forest was so quiet
Not a cricket, a frog, or a bird

It shined so dimly as it lay on the earth
But the forest was bathed in its light
I was frozen in a moment, so holy
Crossing paths with a thing, so divine

Not a word was spoken between us
But I felt what she said in the dark
I asked if she had been defeated
From such a great height, she did fall

She said that all souls descending to earth
Have no memory after the fall
One lonely night, we give up our wings
And fall to the earth like a star

The fog sunk and rolled down the valley
Birdsong blew in on the wind
The stars disappeared in the morning light
As if gravity was thinning

To the star, I could not offer my pity
For only she knows why she came
To keep light alive in the darkness
To stand on the earth and be brave

On late August nights, I go to the place
Where I watched the star fall from the sky
By now, she has become someone
But she can't remember why

I wish for her peace on her journey
When she's lost and forgets where she's from
When the fog sinks and rolls down the valley
May some memory of this night return

Sometimes I go to the clearing
When the foggy night blocks out the stars
Not a word was spoken between us
But I felt what she said in the dark.

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